k whatever.
Chalet for 3 days 2 nights. It was awesome. Super sleepy now, just came back from chalet, so going to sleep now. Goodnight guys.

I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far.
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me.
I’m forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life.
I try my hardest just to forget everything.
I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing.
I don’t know how to let anyone else in, and i’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty.

Woke up late. then saw cheyenne's text. Went to meet her at Outram Mrt. Train to expo to meet Benedict and co. 3plus wait till 6plus then the service starts. i thought two hours service. Then its like till 10plus ! plus i never eat so super hungry. Lucky Sze Xuan accompany me to eat then i left to Airport to find Baobao(: F-ing hell! Airport why must so big, then the stupid store so small. Find for half an hour then found the store. Dammit. Met her for a fag then off to Haji Land to meet Darryn and his friends. Slack till 2 then home. On the way home, walked pass a Gay Club. Wooooo!! The gays there are super cute. Goshhhhh. HAHAHA. whatever.

I cant wait to hear your voice.

Once i wake up this morning, i saw rachel siu's msg so i went to meet her at her place. Had our breakfast/lunch/dinner at PS with Carmen. Carmen left for work. Waited for Lynn and Junjie to finish their movie. Went to Wisma after that. Chill at Starbucks in Paragon. Pamela joined us during her break. Tim came too :D Weisheng came to fetch Pam after her work. Waited for michelle. Then Lynn, Rachel and i went to Suntec to fetch Shiyong from work. Met up with Alfred there. Bought a book which look so cool. "IF WE EVER BREAK UP, THIS IS MY BOOK" hahaha. went to Newton for supper with Shiyong, Rachel and Lynn. Lynn left after that. Meet up with the Clique there. Raza came too. After supper, Rachel and Shiyong left first. Waited for Josh to end work then home (: Weisheng got a terrible stomach ache.......

I cant wait for you to be back. It had been a long week.

She's funny:D hahaha

k whatever. WOW-ing with Tim, Weisheng and Shaun. Didnt WOW for this few days. Hahahaha. fun fun fun :D Got dc, thats why decided to blog. But lazy):

Hurry come back ): i miss you ):

Im alright already :D

Dont have a phone for 2 days plus seriously sucks. Cant contact anyone. Doing nothing at home is like @#$%^ Staying outside alone sucks more. Bundung save my day :D Hahahaha.

Went out to meet sze xuan, huiwen, benedict, sebastian and daybet for basketball. Enjoyedddddddd.

Whatever i said you just wont listen. i want to explain to you but you dun want to listen. Why must we always use violence to solve something? I just wanna sit down with you and explain. But why i always fail to do that. Cant you just let me explain?! Since you already say you dun have a child like me, and wont care anymore, okay. then from today on whatever i do, you better dun care! Whether im success in life or not. I will fucking prove you wrong.

During exam period, you pour cold water on me, saying that i will not make it to sec 5. Trying to complain to everyone that im not studying. I doesnt study at home means that i dun study?? Wtf.

Im trying to help you, thats all. Its a win win game. i can get what i want and you can get what you want. But why cant you let me explain? Sitting down for just 5 mins to hear me explain, will you die?!? you rather spend the 5mins fighting with me. Thanks, im not injuried but i dunno if you're injuried. Can we have a chance just to talk properly? im just wishing for that to happen.

Take care.

Thursday / Friday
Went to Gothem Penthouse for clubbing. Went with Daybet, Blaise, Ken, Benedict, Weisheng, David, Huiwen, Siokyit, Rachel (Tim's Sis), Tim and I. They kept repeating the songs. Its like wtf luh. Okay luh, still enjoyed. After clubbing, went to Boat Quay to drink by the river. Blaise, Daybet, Siokyit, Benedict, Huiwen went home luh. So left with the few of us. Slack, drank there. Shout out loud across the river to make our mood feel better. (Tim, Weisheng, David and i) Then there's this 3 indians who came to us and being very friendly. So we chat with them for awhile. Need to go to the toilet so went with Ken. After toilet, the indians were gone. Bout 20mins later, polices came. Screen us. Surrender our IC. then David couldnt find his wallet, so all of us were like searching for him including the other 3 polices. Then he also found out that his phone wasnt with him. So tried calling his handphone, but its off. ITS THE INDIANS WHO TOOK IT ! dammit. By the time we finished taking statements, its bout 7plus. Hurry rush back to change. then to weisheng's to meet David, Weisheng and Tim. They were like bathing together. Damn funny luh. Gosh. Cab to STC for their Grad. After that, went to valleypoint starbucks. Slack till 3plus then town. Michelle and Pamela left for their prom night first. We continued playing pool then home to bath. Then to weisheng's to meet David, Weisheng and Tim. Bus-ed to Marina Mandarin to fetch Pam and Mich. After that, spize. then slack with Raza.

i hope things will get better.

Going to town almost everyday. Thought that i will sleep till evening today. In the end, michelle called and woke me up at bout 2plus. Went to meet her at Outram, then came to my house again to change. HAHAHA. then town. Meet Pamela and Weisheng. After that, Tim and co came. Went home with Michelle. Home early = BORED ! Didnt have any meal today = HUNGRY !

i just wanna tell you that " i love you "

Yay! im finally home early today although is 12.17am already. LOL! Went out bout 7pm today.
Went to Outram to meet Chin Yi, accompanied her to buy PSP for her sister. Then meet Siokyit. Bus-ed to Town. Cine (: Meet Benedict, Daybet, Venus, Huiwen, 2 Sebastian. Hahahaha. Had dinner. then walked to PS. Slack awhile then trained to Outram with Siokyit. Sat at the MRT to talk till 11.45pm. Then Home :D

i want things to turn out better.
A crush shall remains as a crush?

Haven been sleeping well this few days. dun feel like blogging much.

Friday
Woke up late, so went to weisheng's to meet him, pam and mich. David and Tim came too with Mich's Birthday Cake. Then Ken came too. went to town after that. Mich went to service the phone. After town bout evening time, went to east coast for Class BBQ. Not much food left. But enjoyed. You can see students gambling there and drinking. K, drinking and gambling i also in it. Tim's sister came and fetch us home. Home then. thought that i can sleep early. Who knows need to go find huiwen. Then brought her to Tim's cafe. His sister and her friend were there too. Accompany Tim to bake his cake.Bake till 6plus then home again. Tired. sleeping soon :D

confused luhhhh

Monday
As usual, went to Stc to fetch Pam and Mich with Weisheng and Seow Wei. Waited for David. Then went to Holland. Slack at Macs while waiting for mich and pam. Went to say hi to Gail at BK then had coldrock. Cab back to Tiong. went for my uncle's funeral. okayyyy. its damn paiseh. i went to the wrong funeral at first. then i see the people all weird weird one. then i faster walk off. After that, went to Newton to find elise and josh. slack and talked there. Home after that.

im confused, im sad, i dunno what to do):

Went to CHC today. meet seow wei then waited for Benedict, Huiwen and Venus before leaving to CHC. :D service was great but abit off form today ): After church went to Tiong to meet Daybet. had late lunch then to arcade. Rent movie to Benedict's after that. Movie till 12am then home :D